You and I, cannot hide
The love you feel inside
The words we need to say

I feel that I, have always walked alone
Now that you're here with me, there'll always be a place where I can go
But suddenly our destiny has started to unfold
when your next to me, I can see
the greatest story love has ever told

Now my life is blessed with the love of an angel
(How it can be true)
Somebody to keep the dream alive
(the dream I found in you)
I always thought that love would be the strangest thing to me
But when we touch, I realise, that I've found my place in heaven by your side

I could fly, when you smile
I'd walk a thousand miles, to hear you call my name
Now that I, have finally found the one
Who will be there for me, eternally
My everlasting sun
Suddenly, our destiny has started to unfold
When you're next to me, I can see
The greatest story love has ever told

Now my life is blessed with the love of an angel
(How it can be true)
Somebody to keep the dream alive
(the dream I found in you)
I always thought that love would be the strangest thing to me
But when we touch, I realise, that I've found my place in heaven by your siiiiide

That I've found my place in heaven by your side...

The first song dedicated to me by his blog. 

I've been...quite bothered these couple of days.  I can't say it hasn't bugged me for awhile, but these couple of days have been exceptionally hard.  Alas, that's probably why I'm writing in you - again. 

To be honest, I'm not so sure why I'm so bothered.  I just feel like there's this big decision that I'm rushing to make, however I can't seem to come to a conclusion.  One minute I'll be so sure of something, then the next minute I'll have some thoughts that try to waver my decision.  I can't seem to see properly anymore.
I believe this is a result from not getting out enough.  Well, that's the conclusion I've come to...since it seems to be the only part of my life that I'm currently missing.  Having said that, I should get out more right? 
It seems that I've become so adapted to my way to (somewhat) sheltered living that I can't draw up the effort to go out anymore. 

*sigh* Why don't I have more friends?

I've said I'll never leave him, he said he'll never leave me.  We've given our promises to each other, but...how many of these promises actually come true? Ironic, I doubted his love for me in the same way at the beginning of our relationship, but now...a year later into our relationship.  It seems to have gotten me nowhere.

I will...try harder to unattach myself.  My thoughts aren't very clear at the moment...about what I should be doing.  But whatever I do, I just hope it's for the better.  No one has ever been make me so happy before...no one has ever been able to touch my heart and open it up like such.  And no one has ever been able to make me do such...stupid things (lol).  I guess it really goes to show that people do change...and love can really change people. 

I'm lazy ..and somewhat frustrated in not knowing exactly what I want to write. 

Maybe I'll try again later
Maybe I won't...

Hope you all had a good xmas and New Year's!

My New Year was indeed spent with my beloved Fishball.  My first time I've actually gone out and watched the fireworks for myself.  My family is just way too lazy -_-;;
The fireworks were amazing! The food afterwards...not so much.  I wasn't exactly used to stuffing a banquet into my stomach at 12:30am in the morning, nevermind the fact it was with his family's randoms and I was really sleepy.  Lol. 
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Staying at his house is...nice.  Nicer than staying at my own in fact.  I've gradually accumulated a number of my own belongings there - toothbrush, toiletries, PJs, clothing, plushies (Pudding~) and the love of their numerous (5) dogs.  Even my own room *grin* What more could I ask for?  The parents adore my presence, it's almost as if I am really part of the family.  I hope I will be one day XD AH I can't believe I just said that *runs away in embarrassment*  I can even eat comfortably with his family friends!  That is very hard to come by I would say.

Lots have happened this week, to my surprise.  Fishball's cousin has actually given birth to a little baby girl...3 weeks old now.  Can you believe it? There were indeed rumours that she was pregnant but in no way would I have expected her to have given birth!  Partly because I saw her months earlier and she seemed...flat.  On another note, I can't believe she even had it! With abortions being so easy and legal in Australia, you think she'd think twice before popping one out.  Abortions literally only take 10minutes of your life - taking care of a kid takes the rest of your life.  Or if you're lucky - around 20 to 30 years.  *sigh~*

What else makes me think that she made a darn stupid mistake is that both families certainly aren't happy, or put more bluntly - want them to be together at all.  Being 6 years older than the guy, what good future could come out of it? Other than everyone else looking at you like you're dating your little brother.  Oh look! Now they have an incest baby to make it all better.  I may be harsh in this matter, but I purely believe that if you aren't ready or have the funds to raise a kid then you shouldn't have made one.  This couple are in no position to have a kid, they have no money, no job and no support from either of their families.  They aren't even citizens of Australia!  I for one wouldn't do something as stupid.  Not to mention the child is innocent!

Enough ranting, it's ruining my happy-happy blog!  The point of this blog is that in 11 days time I'll be happily settling into a plain chair on my 3 week trip to Hong Kong with my Fishball~! Woopee! I haven't ever been on a holiday, not to mention a plane on my lonesome!  So looking forward to it indeed, downside is that I won't be able to spend my parent's monies =(

When I get back, Uni will be starting again, oh how holidays fly by so fast...I will have to get my Honours project set up before then...Crappy crap crap - gotta make the trip to Monash tomorrow, wish me luck!

<3
Fortune Cookie

Xmas is about giving - although that's what everyone's said and such.

Today, I feel as though I'm suddenly slipping into another part of my life.  After my christmas party at MHRI (Mental health and research institute - no, I'm not crazy), for no reason I got offered a job interview at Bio21 with Kevin Barnham as a Research Assistant (RA) working with mice colonies.  At first I though whoopee! No more studying!  But now that I look back...I'm scared.  I have to leave behind all those carefree days of not wanting to turn up to class and exchanging them for day after day of work in an animal housing facility.  Wow...scammed no? :P  On the plus side, I can finally make money!  Money to afford all the things I want and don't want to buy because I can't afford dinner afterwards - or something like that.  

So my plans are (if this suceeds) to defer Honours for a year and see how this lifestyle suits me (probably doesn't).  How stressful! I haven't even seen him yet and I'm stressing out!  I hate when my life shifts and changes - I have to adapt again...and I don't like adapting to new things *pouts* 

It's also stressful because...Kevin is known to work his employees very very hard... *sigh~* 

Wish me luck - I'll tell you how this all goes later, gotta go to the Animal house and gavage mice ~.~

As I struggled out of bed this morning (yes, struggled), I realised something.  I'll probably never survive a full-time job for more than a month.  This is because as the days drag by, my habituation towards my alarm becomes increasily obvious - I turn it off before turning over and sleep again. This leads to everything else afterwards being rushed (e.g: showering, breakfast, hairdrying, doing my face up etc.) and I get to work abou 10mins late.  Whoopee, this is the second concurrent day it's happened (happened yesterday too).  I think it's cos I know I can get away with it XP

At work, it has been a pretty slow day, as my supervisor has various christmas meetings (wait..christmas meetings? Oo) and whatnot to attend to.  This has left me in the company of Cyn, a phD student that I can only sort of hold a conversation with...if it's talking about brains and spinal cords and of course the all-so-generic weather convos that we have.  Yes, the lab is currently very silent right now and the only sounds that can be heard is the sound of me pressing the keys on the keyboard, and the repeatitive alarm sounds when Cyn's timer goes off and she has to do something.  Such as wash her Western blot gels with TBS and SSV and other rahdom letters stuck together.  I'm sure they mean something...but hey I wouldn't know.  

Another thing worth mentioning is that I had a very scary dream last night.  I remember being haunted by a ghost which was then somehow a virus in my computer that tried to kill me and my whole family.  I think it's derived from a couple of reasons::

1. My brother has a virus on his computer - it's been there for awhile and has only become more annoying recently.  I sleep right next to that computer...>.>

2. Just before I went to sleep I heard some rustling sounds...like someone playing with a plastic bag.  I figured it was nothing...however creeped out that I was (VERY CREEPED OUT), I just told myself it was nothing.  

So there you have it, ingredients for a perfectly horrifying nightmare and a sleepless night. 

Now I have to survive through this whole day and no time to sleep early , as I have to spend that leveling on my new MMORPG.

Aloha~!

People who will come by here (hardly anyone for that matter) will realise that I've changed my blog image!  I realise that I've become a new person since I last posted and this should be reflected in my blog title and format.  Yes, I've found my true love for the colour pink - if I hadn't already before XD

Generally...
Life has been treating me...well let's just say - Fair. Not too bad, but not too good either.  Currently doing a work experience placement at a Neuroscience lab in the University, it is quite interesting.  Interesting enough for me to be able to write a blog such as this during my work time 8D.  I've learnt quite a lot surprisingly, it's also given me an insight on the real world of scientific research - it's really a harsh world...I've currently only got 7 days to go.  So I must Add Oil! 

My uncle came from China for a couple days last week.  I was really happy, however during the time he was here I seemed to have minimum contact with him.  Reflecting on it now, I hardly said anything to him.  Since when did I become so distant - so hard to approach? Is it because I've become so old and mature now that it seems inappropriate to treat me like a kid? Ironic isnt it, when you want to be that little kid you can't.  

Side note: My hubby always lets me act like a little kid - he spoils me too much~

Relationship-wise...
This will probably make up the gist of my blog! ^-^  Hubby and I still seem to be Honeymooning - it is our 9 month annivesary soon.  9 months huh...it's not a short period of time, some can even say it's a long time but from my experience...it's been magical.  I think the reason I've suddenly gotten up and decided to spill my guts here again is because I've been reading my past blogs.  Interestingly enough, I felt our relationship was magical from the start.  Look where I am now - I guess it's this part of life that's treating me nicely.  Ups and downs we do have, but it seems that here are ups more than downs - just the way I like it.  In the rollercoaster of love I think I've finally found my landing.  For a little bird that thought she didn't have legs - I've found em! :D

My lifestyle has also changed a great lot because of this relationship.  I've constantly pondered about whether this significant change is for better or for worse.  Since the beginning we've been stuck at the hip together - even now we can't be parted.  I think this is the reason why I'm still so attached and drifting aimlessly in the world of luffles.  But I've in a way sacrificed a part of my freedom - my time with friends, girl shopping time and my freedom to wear the revealing clothes that I please ._.  This is my part of the bargain, however I believe that my Hubby has given in even more.  I've realised over this period of time that he will really do anything for me...and will stay by my side as long as I please - or don't please *giggles*. Don't take this the wrong way, I'm not complaining because I feel like I'm spending too much time with my Hubby, there's no one else in the world I'd rather spend all my time with ~.^

I've also drifted away from people I would have kept in contact with the same time last year.  Goodbyes are a funny thing aren't they? At first you think it's such a shame, however now it feels as though living without them was not a neccessity afterall.  That you can get by just fine without them.  I believe this is the process known as adaptation. How much have I adapted to my changes in environment? Who knows...these changes are usually only seen by those that haven't contacted you in years.  

Most important of all...for some
I'm graduating! After this work placement and successful 'Pass' of my essay I will finally get my Diploma..and wear that little gown ..and the hat...and take random photos in the University.  YAY! Of course, I will come back to this Uni to do Honours next year anyway ._. It really proves to me how time flies when you look back - I've gone through 3 years of Uni.  None of it even seems like 3 years - but indeedy, it's all there.  It makes me feel ...old.

So then...How will the world treat me after I travel now into the big wide world with my little piece of paper that is my Diploma?

It's been awhile!

Well, it's not like anyone reads my blog anyways.

Lots have happened since i wrote..i mean, it was at the end of first year uni and now i'm halfway through first semester of third year uni. 

I've loved and lost..
Hah and what a story it is...It was April last year, I walked into a microbiology lecture (which I didn't sign up for by the way XD) and this would be the first time i spot Brownie ( yes..i shall name him mah Brownie XD) in a bright red jumper.  I can't exactly recall how I felt when i first saw him..But I could say it was love at first sight (more cliche plox..lol)  To my suprise he was also a friend of my friends.  So the story begins...

Months pass and events happen; he invites me to go out in search of a mother's day present, we set up 'studying' sessions together (in which we don't really get anything done..suprise suprise), we both battle to the death in bomberman (I win~ YES!) and spend most of our lunchtimes and after uni hours together.  

Finally, he asks me out outside our biomed library >.>;;(after a studying session, lol)  AND i ignored him because i didn't think he was actually being serious, since we were already holding hands and such.  

From then on things could only get sweeter right?  Yes..and no.  The sweet parts involved him actually missing me and doing things for me.  I remember one time he couldn't turn up to class because he had a choir rehearsal, but when i turned up to class he was waiting for me..I swore I could've felt like the luckiest girl alive.  

Then let's play Meet Brownie's parents >_>
I've always had a bad feeling about this day, it leaves a bitter taste in my mouth.  The day itself wasn't so bad, but the days  to come would be those close to hell.  The more the mother saw me, the more i could feel she hated me..and the more Brownie would keep his distance from me to keep his mother happy.  

The day you went away..
When all's said and done (cliche me! XD) there was...nothing more to be said lol.  I don't regret any of what i did..(also because i don't like to regret anything at all..) and I had my share of happy times and memories, that's what's important I guess.  

The good thing about all of this is, I still get to keep Brownie as a friend.  At first i felt awkward and upset, but now it feels better knowing everything is past us. 

Enough gloominess!
My clubbing outing was great! And i must say a very happy bday to my bestest pal Chii, since it was in celebration of her 21st bday.  She's so cute and smooshy ~ 
One of my goals for the clubbing outing was to have fun and also expand my social network!  Both goals were achieved to some extent, lols.  

New shell
I'd like to think i've changed for the better.  Before I was so into keeping ppl impressed and happy, now i feel all that matters is to keep myself happy.  I've recently joined a dance club and learning the groovy moves! (also to scout the area in search of eligible bachelors..>.>)  

Uni now is manageable.. of course with the company of Chii-chan ~  We have the same classes..so we're kinda superglued together. ^_^  I'd really have to thank Chii for being there for me lately.  Dunno what i'd do without her.  Plus we ARE in the same boat together afterall, *wink wink*.  Paddling along~  

Sydney here I come!
Going on a Sydney trip on saturday night! A whole 3 days and nights away from home..all for myself! (and my 6 other friends coming lol)  I think of this as a chance to get away and..just away.  I still haven't packed so...I'll do it later.

As for the new people..Update when I get back!

"挥别错的才能和对的相逢"

Wanna know how it went?

No Comment.
Seriously, it was the worst thing imagineable.  Well ok, i exaggerate a bit....
The MCQ were ok...i could do most of them (i think)
But then u move onto the Part B Short answer ones...and u go
"Omfg..."
Especially the last couple, it's like they threw in all the random things they KNEW we wouldnt study!
So cruel.

Oh right and if life could get any worse....
Physics tomorrow + I haven't studied at all = Phail

It hasn't been a good semester.

Yesterday was Friday the 27th of October.

What I did:
Go to Uni for my chemistry prac (omgz0rs, last one!)
Be totally hypo at lunchtime wif the half dead Sha-chan
Bummed around at home for about 5 hours before studying :D
Realise that I could still play the piano! After putting it off for around...1.5years! *plays jingle bells* And not only that, I can still READ the notes! Great achievement for me ^___^

What I didn't do:
Go to any of the lectures I was supposed to go to (what...I slept in too late <_<)
Eat Ice-cream
Study enough

To Do List:
Study
Study...and...
Eat ice-cream

But everyone knows that ppl don't really do what's on their to-do lists.....Its just there to nag at the back of ur mind till its too late and u just HAVE to get off ur ass to do it in a last minute kinda way ;D However, that would mean I wont get the ice-cream im craving for D:

Yay it's that time of the week again: Pay Day! *scabs money off parents*


EDIT// 
Did i mention that yesterday was the last day of official classes for my first year of uni :D Yeah..that was MEANT to be the point of this journal: No more Nubness for me!